YWednesday, May 2, 2012' 12:51 AM
Everything was fine until April approaches. i know everyone have to busy with sch life when sch started and i cant expect that he have time for me compared to hols period. but what i'm trying to do is to try keep in contact with him as long as there's time. but this has caused me a HUGE trouble that had affected the group. His mum restricted him from hanging out with us! Ouch! this is so painful to know! I immediately burst into tears when i'm in public, this is the first time i put down my pride and cried for such a thing in public.
I didn't have the appetite for dinner at all and i cried the whole day till i passed out at home. I've never become so disconsolate over someone. This shows that i'm truly in love for this person. I brought upon this myself, I shouldn't have called his house in the first place, what's done cannot be undone. So what I can do is to wait, if he's mine, means he is. Although i'm laughing out loud with my friends, but deep in my heart i'm aching...I wont give up so easily just bcuz of his parents. I hope he could do the same. We've come so far until here, and yet such thing happened.
It's another lesson learned, i guess? if only there's another chance for me to amend and change, I will.
Labels: I'm sorry. Hoping to get another chance.
YWednesday, February 8, 2012' 2:20 AM
Hey peeps! i'm back to post! =D Too long didn't update alr, suddenly have the mood to blog! ;D Nowadays have been working at an indian restaurant and i've started getting used to the work place ^^ manager, boss and colleagues are nice to me ;) such a pleasant place to work at =) but the area is full of traffics which is what i'm concerned this few days....=///
Few days ago when i'm on the way back home crossing a traffic, i almost get knock down by a
Taxi that sudden break in few inches away of me and that was close! today as i have to cross a short distance road to MRT station, another
Taxi suddenly turned in and stopped before me, and again i'm escape from an accident by luck.
Another incident, this morning when i'm on the way to work, saw a so-called "lizard" aimlessly crawled out of car lane and was crashed by a
Taxi! Gosh! i cant even concentrate when taking orders for customers...SEE!
Taxi again! I guess the lizard's death by car crash is a message for me to watch out when crossing roads, not all cars will always stop for me if i just dash out of road without checking left and right. My dad also reminded me to wait for cars to stop first everytime i crossing roads. I should start to bear in mind of all the reminders and messages given to me.
All right, that's all abt it. feeling much better now =) Nights peeps! =D
YTuesday, January 24, 2012' 1:54 AM
Hey peeps, i'm back to post again! =D today have a sudden urge to post, so i'm here! =D It's CNY again! and day 1 is just over, kinda tired when i reached home, but first thing come first. Count ang bao money! ;D hehe =P didn't receive much but i'm satisfied =) Saw all my aunties, uncles, cousins and last but not least is my nieces and nephews! They're all so adorable! took some pics of them but is on my uncle's phone, shall get the pics from him soon ;) alright, lets talk abt today. Reached grandma's hse at ard 2plus 3pm and started with all the wishes and greetings and also receive ang baos! hehe ^^ then followed by chit chatting and stuffs, Jun Xian my eldest nephew still couldn't get along well with people, but he's cute after all =D he's abt 21mths old and yet he looks like he's 3 or 4 yr old kid! Imagine how talk is he! haha family genes =P so just as normal, we're all gathered ard but didn't take any pics but just some of myself =P sis and all went overseas with bfs so left mum and I. it's okay 2012 will be awesome! =D
I seriously hate Fb ttm! always spoil my mood with some photos or posts which i wouldn't like to see! humph! Somehow i really wish the founder of fb will close down fb in any ways...i dont mind! =/ nvm, i'm thinking positive now! =) I'm not gonna live like last yr, in fact i'll lead a better year ahead for my own sake! =D
Okay, Tim's bdae is approaching! Shld look forward to it. hopefully it'll will become better =) Nights peeps, *yawns* haha Happy CNY once again! ^^
YThursday, January 12, 2012' 3:04 AM
Hi readers! though i know not really a lot of friends know that i still do update blog. Just wanted to blog a bit abt these few days. It's been a torture for me to bear with the pain after receiving Os results D= It's a great disappointment to all my frens and teachers who's having some expectations in me, i'm really sorry of not putting in much effort last yr and caused such disgrace to myself and all...Msges and calls keep coming to ask for my results, cried in the hall and in front of my friends for the FIRST time! How embarrassing is that! gosh~ I was so sick of my phone's vibrations so i off it instead. It's such a huge breakdown for me as i climbed so far till Os and now i cant even get into any local poly, how ridiculous it can be...now i pity myself and at the same time reflect of my doings in the past, it's time for me to change in fact few yrs back i shld have. sigh, my new yr resolution is not even complete! no wonder i'm in this situation now...lots of sign had given me signal that i wont do well, and it really is. SIGH big time! today went to Angeline's hse to talk abt courses, we're both so headache of whr which path we shld choose, for me is even worst once i logged in to FB my gastric starts to feel unwell and eventually i vomited. didnt have appetite for the whole afternoon...this was how terrible i'm suffering now...now i've chosen my path, hopefully it's a right one and i'll succeed from there =)
I am so afraid to tell my dad abt my results, and finally today i brought up the courage to tell him ^^ at first he is super disagreed of me going to ite, but after i explained to him he changed his mindset =) alright, now i'm heading to bed, nights peeps! =D
P.S: Miss those times with Galvyn, Debbie, Mark, Tim, Derrick, Sherman =D
YTuesday, December 27, 2011' 5:11 AM
7 mths had passed, it's so long yet so short. We've stop contact each other and busy with our own life, your NS my Os. Dk why in my daily life i was always reminded of you with the things surrounded me no matter what it is. I would tend to compare you with any guys i met and somehow they just dont have the criteria you holds. To me you're just too perfect to be mine, too perfect for me to find another you. haiz, i nv forget the moment i had with you at the riverside of Clarke Quey, sitting at a riverside of S'pore flyer and sing to each other, how we celebrated our birthdays, and the card you gave me...it's all within my heart and soul which cnnt be erased. I really miss you very MUCH! =( You're the only one i like the most and it'll be in my memory =)
YThursday, December 8, 2011' 1:20 AM
it's been weeks since they had moved to my hse. My daily lifestyle changes too, i used to listen to 91.3FM, do the things i used to do or whatsoever..but after they moved here, all changes...sigh. nvm, it's only temporary my lifestyle will be back soon. I somehow think that i'll go insane soon, cuz nowadays my mind keep having those weird images which would not happen in real and those symptoms is actually a mental illness...haiz, srsly dk what to do also. Fang ling suggest me to go out often, but who do i look for? All either working or Poly, so i might as well stayed at home watch drama online...now even though there are pple at my house, but it make no difference than the past when i'm alone...i'm still alone doing my own stuffs. Even my father keep nagging abt me being disrespect to my paternal relatives...i dont think we'll be that close after they'd moved out. so what for get close with them? i wont give a damn...all i'll think is my future life, that's what i shld be concern abt for now right? Mind my own business, that's what pple says. how i wish i could have a bf now, so i could turn to him whenever i'm bored or lonely...but i dont have it now sigh~ sometimes i really dk who am i or even know how to control my thinking...i guess my brain has too much pressure to it which caused such situation now...
nvm, i shall stop here. will blog some other day when i feel like =)
YWednesday, November 30, 2011' 1:15 AM
Today i was late for work again...too tired till I can't hear the alarm is ringing...so my managers talked to me abt it...haiz that was the first doom. after that i'm supposed to meet up Renie to shop with me but end up didnt meet and i also didnt get to buy the stuffs i wanted and tmr is the last day to claim the money! SIGH! okay then meet up mum and sis to have dinner at Veg Restaurant, YUMMY! =D eat till full full ^^ when i reached home...dooms come again, my cousin's dog is
FREAKING irritating!!!! whoever comes back, it will keep barking NON stop! sigh, and it keep coming to my room till there's some smell in my room =.= so i told my younger cousin to chase it out from my room, my tone was kinda harsh maybe i'm not in a gd mood that's why. feel sorry for her. then the eldest one shouted back saying my tone sounds rude or what, oh gosh! i think i shld listen to my sis's words not to get too close with her, she's 3 yrs younger than me and yet dare to shout back at me, she dont even dare to do that to my sis lor! srsly WTH! cant stand her! haiz...nvm just go with it.
She's quite thick-skinned. just quarrelled with me and still have the chick to ask me let her use comp...sigh, so dont feel like letting her use..i'm now in a fit of anger, so my words here is not nice to read up. my blog are just my diary to write out my unhappiness, hope you guys dont mind abt it =)
alright, i shall be going Nights! =D
